I started the day again today by breaking into a mess of tears. I just couldn’t handle the stress, or the thought of having to leave the house and go to work. I decided that I had to try to do something about all this; I haven’t been this bad in months. I made an… Continue reading A mess of thoughts
Today I went out and conquered my anxieties (well just some, and it might just have been a fluke, but still). I took the train to the city to go to meet my sister. She lives around 5 hours away from me so I only get to see her 3 or 4 times a year.… Continue reading Day out in the city.
So the worst has happened, I had a complete breakdown at work. The one place where I’ve been doing so well at pretending that I’m ok and that I don’t have this stupid mental illness. I’ve just gone and ruined it all. It all came from my anxiety. My boss told me that I had… Continue reading BPD, Anxiety and Breakdowns at Work.
My moods are very erratic. I can go from hypomanic to depressed in a matter of seconds and can happen multiple times a day. One thing that you are certain of when you spend time with me is that you can never guess which me you’ll end up with. It’s truly frustrating for everyone involved.… Continue reading This sadness will last until the next mood swing.
It’s Valentine’s day, it’s a completely overrated day, I can’t say I care much about it but I still felt horrible that I couldn’t afford to get my boyfriend much. So I made him this beautiful and well-made card. . I spent a good hour with my work friends making the card, we had a lot… Continue reading Valentine’s, Love and Support
“Alright babes? Everything ok with you? You’re not yourself” This is the message I received from a work colleague tonight. I can’t even put into words the panic and pure terror I felt when I read this message (ironic really since I’m writing a blog). I had a million thoughts rush through my head at… Continue reading You’re not yourself.
Start a herb garden Take more pictures with my polaroid camera (artsy stuff) Create my own recipes, go wild, think Vicar of Dibley: Letitia Cropley: The question is whether I bring the snails I’ve got for my new recipe. Frank Pickle: What recipe is that? Letitia Cropley: Bread and Butter Pudding Surprise. Start baking again,… Continue reading 20 things I NEED to do this year